My husband and I used to two-step in the kitchen when we were first married. It always made me fall in love with him again, rekindle those warm feelings as well as reinstate my commitment to and my joy in my marriage. Well, tonight, I two-stepped in my kitchen with God, listening to songs that really plumb the depths of my heart. I know that sounds strange to some–but for me, this is part of what faith looks like in the everyday.
The last few years of my life have been hard, for many reasons that are still close to my heart and are private. But what I will shout from the rooftops is what resilient faith looks like and how it has completely turned my life upside down in the most beautifully-wild and unexpected ways.
This is what it looks like for me sometimes. My heart felt heavy today–burdened with a load of… something… that I just couldn’t describe, couldn’t release, couldn’t put a name to. I know I have a message to bring to the world. I am confident that God placed me here to help others, and yet, I get so tongue-tied and tangled up in the actual speech part of it. I was speaking with one of my mentors about it today–that I just want to be there for you. I want to invite into your life the opportunity of transformation through a deeper relationship with God.
I had begun to question myself. If I could bring this message to anyone. If I even knew what the message was.
But I’ve also known that if I keep it all inside, I burst. There’s too deep of a well inside me that it must come out.
And so I wrestle.
Tonight, I stumbled across a song I’d forgotten about. As I listened to it, it reminded me of God’s faithfulness and provision, and it sent me around my kitchen. Strolling at first, then swaying, then two-stepping. As I moved to the light of my Christmas tree, feeling the depth of the words in the song, tears streaming down my face, my heart called out to God for a deeper connection with Him. For a stronger commitment to Him, regardless of what happens within my daily emotions or my current circumstances.
Anchoring into Him. Instead of tossing in the waves.
That’s the thing that faith is in the everyday. It’s the continual renewal. It’s stripping away all the mess that we add on top of our lives and just centering again on who He is and what He is in the middle of doing.
“Behold, I am doing a new thing; now it springs forth, do you not perceive it? I will make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert.”
Isaiah 43:19, ESV
I feel an incredible sense of unfolding. Like a flower opening into bloom. A rising from the ashes. God is doing a good work, and even when there are days where I have no idea what’s going to come over the next hill, or how I’m supposed to show up, or if the thing I thought He had promised would actually come to pass or not… even when there are days like that, I can maintain my focus on Jesus and weather the storms because of Him.
Knowing that He is doing a good work, regardless of whether I see it yet or not.
So, what does faith look like in the everyday? Like a lot of realignment. A lot of walking through your emotions with compassion and then shifting your sights so that you focus only on what your spirit knows to be true, even if your thoughts or your five senses tell you otherwise.
It’s saying, “God, I don’t know where we’re going, but I know I’ll be taken care of if You are the One taking me there.”
Are you ready to adventure with God?